I totally let Easter slip up on me! We always celebrate Easter big! What better holiday to celebrate big than the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ! But this year, the emotional status at our house has just been yucky! My week just did not turn out as planned. But today, I got to spend some time in the kitchen and am sort of prepared to fix us a good meal tomorrow. I do have Easter gifts and we did dye Easter eggs. But, Conner, is growing up. He didn't really want to dye eggs this year! He did but it definitely didn't have the magic and fun that it has in the years past! But I have a feeling when I fix him some deviled eggs tomorrow, he'll like those. I only make those like once a year!!
Conner is not growing really well. He had check up this week and he has fallen below the 15th percentile in his growth. We are in the process of getting an appt. with an endocrinologist. I'm not sure how I feel about that whole possibility. If it didn't bother him so bad, I wouldn't think about it in the least. It adds more stress to my life. But...then I wonder if there is really a problem that we need to know about or does his medicines that he takes play a role in his lack of growth. Praying that God would give us great wisdom on this issue.
Chloe had her appt. in Bham at MDA clinic this week as well. I am so thankful that we have good doctors now. We went without a good doctor here for awhile, so to feel like we are in good hands, is so wonderful. Chloe's hand muscles are tight. She wears splints at night on her hands. We have to see an OT here in Huntsville, to be fitted for new splints. Her shoulders continue to get weaker. Her lower body strength remains the same. Right now, the weakness is showing in those shoulders and arms. There was a definite change in the past six months. Both of the doctors that we saw, was concerned about her emotional status. Within seconds of walking in our room, they both said, Chloe what's wrong...you're not happy today. Since we have treated Chloe for depression in the past, this was a major sign that we could be going down that path again. At first, I thought, nope, they are wrong. But as I've had time to think back, I'm not sure we are not on that road to depression again. She spends a lot of time alone! I thought she was just growing up so I'm so glad the doctors said something and I will definitely be on alert more. I have talked to one of my friends and asked her to help me watch as well and to have the freedom to tell me if it was time to treat depression.
My shoulder continues to give me fits. I had it feeling better and then it started again. I had xrays done this week but it doesn't really show anything. (other than the fact I'm getting old and have arthritis beginning) So we definitely believe it is muscular in nature. So we will keep working on those muscles and trusting that God is going to bring healing soon!!
Life has just seemed to be overwhelming the past month or so. I am spent! I had hoped that with some changes that happened here the first of the week, it would bring about a more content atmosphere but it didn't! For so long now, I have fought against where we are in life! But I have begun to pray that God would change my heart to be happy with where we are in life! I guess if the circumstances aren't changing then my heart needs to change. There's a little chorus that says Change my heart O God. That's where I am right now.
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